I was about to say that I somehow deserve better, because I see the artistic aspects of software rather than the utilitarian, but that's all nonsense I think. I think it's probably very true that you haven't seen someone quite like me - I doubt many have been sufficiently moved to write something like this. Oh, isn't that enough for me to deserve better?!, I almost asked, but it's all starting to strike me as a bit crazy. Oh Jim! I think it's probably all just this headache, and that soon this dull screen will light up and then it will all be better, but sometimes, well, I don't know. I hate the thought of it going down like it did last year, but can I really figure it out in time? It's funny, I could've easily walked up to you and resolved it all then and there, but...I respect you too much. By which I mean I feared an innocuous remark from you, which I would take far too seriously; you don't deserve what would follow as a result.

Oh, I can't help it, I must get this off my chest - yes, I think it impossibly unfair that A got what he did, even though he doesn't seem to apply any of it in his actual work. This actually strikes at something fundamentally problematic with the subject, really - it gives the opportunity for people to waffle on about things they don't believe in and never actually go about doing, yet receive no penalty. (As for who I am to talk about something like this, being a gross offender on more than one count over the years, well...)