Ok. It's ok. She is definitely gone. I read it again, and it's so clear to me. I imagined most of it, so now there are no more excuses to be made. Perhaps at one point things could've gone differently, but I think we just met at the wrong time. Please, try to get on with it now. And if you really need to, feel free to imagine whatever you wish with those last words she spoke to you, that no one else can confirm or deny.